Post ni panjang. Kalau rajin bacalah. Ini confessions. 🥰
I datang dari keluarga pecah belah. Where in one time I memberontak lari dari Uni tak habis belajar & lari dari family.
Cut it short, I come back & stay dengan my siblings. They asked me to find job. I only got sijil SPM. Laku ke sijil tak habis belajar law 2nd year degree itu? 🤣 So I dapat lah kerja sekejap but the place is BAD.
I quit. I nak cari new job. But biasalah, org kata kita lawa, kita pun memang perasan lawa. So orang close to me suruh jual muka. Hahaha. True ya! That’s why I jadi model & commercial actor. Jadi pelakon & penyanyi xlepas sebab I got slang + chipmunk voice. 🤓
Lama2 I met some people & membuat kajian jadilah fulltime blogger & influenzarsss ni. Then I slowly stop modeling & acting sebab gemuk makan byk time food review lel. 🤣
In all these time jual muka, I create a persona. A fake version of me yang macam percect. Deep inside of me I masih rebel, I can’t get what I want, I couldn’t do what I wish. 🔥
I byk ideas but people just like my face more. So jadilah jual muka tiap masa tapi orang tak tau I ni bijak orangnya lel. But in order to pursue it I kena jadi myself and do it with orang yg betul2 boleh I trust. 💪🏻
Anyway, sampai masanya I wake up & cakap kat diri sendiri. “Let’s do this! Stop dengan fakeness, do whatever you want, follow your heart & santau semua itu durjana. HAHAHAHAHA”. 🔥
Okay cut the santau part but you get it.
Since I pun masih panas2 tak surut lagi rebel tu. I decide untuk totally be who I am by starting to introduce my real self bit by bit. But what people should know, NEVER MESSED UP with me. Sebab I will SLAP you into roti canai. 👍🏻 But selalunya I keluarkan dari my life je lah, fikir I kejam sangat ke. Lagi baik I buang dari my life dari I musnahkan hidup orang tu kut. 😆
So, the summarization ni actually shaping me into my real self yg I will introduce slowly ni karang. Still not stable with emotions I mengaku. But tak de lah nak cari pasai tetiba bagus I tengok Zhawn Mendez I. 🥰
But for first intro, my heart says hi and my heart want to give it all. #notintothebandwagonanymore
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